Ever since I started driving, I’ve had ridiculous road rage. I yell at stupid drivers, slow drivers, aggressive drivers, and the list keeps growing. I realized today that I need to quit this behavior because it’s not doing anything but making my blood pressure escalate.

I’ve tried listening to music, audiobooks, meditating, but nothing works. I know the real solution is self control, so I need to start practicing that cause I am starting to realize how annoying it is. Maybe the first step is self awareness.

This weekend was a huge test because I had to deal with my ex the whole time. He didn’t offer to pay for anything this weekend, even though it was all for our son. I am tired of paying for everything, and he thinking that child support covers all of it.

My son worships him, and thinks that his dad does so much. It’s sad that the reality is that he doesn’t even do barely anything. I think I did pretty good, and I am proud of myself.

After the call from the Principal, I yelled. I guess I made progress in the sense that afterwards, I felt guilty.

“I feel guilt now if I do not write for at least an hour a day. “

How I did it: At first, I put it on my Google Calendar, so it would send me a text message to get off the couch and begin writing.  After awhile, I didn’t need the reminder anymore.  I would get up myself and begin writing, even if it was just a sentence.  However, after writing a sentence, I would want to write more and more.

Lessons & tips:

1. Don’t give up on yourself
2. Don’t think you  have to write a certain amount of words.  Just write, even if it’s just one word. 
3. Don’t let people interrupt you. 
4. Do feel proud if you do write something 
5. Do start a blog or a journal or BOTH 

Resources:

1. Blogging
2. Journal 
3. Google Calendar 

It took me 30 days.

It made me Proud

“Liberating!”

How I did it: I just forced myself to stop feeling guilty, and when I didn’t want to do something, I would say “No.”  Even when people would start whining, I would just leave the situation, so I wouldn’t have to deal with their tantrums.

Resources: “The Solo Partner”  Great book

It took me 60 days.

It made me HAPPY

The kids and I have been adjusting to our new routine more and more each day. I have been taking them to all of their practices, and I am FINALLY sleeping at a decent time. Not going to lie, yesterday, I let them stay up a little bit. Isabelle and I passed out at 8:45 p.m. cause we were exhausted. I think it was all of the mosquitoes that were kicking our butts when we were watching Cebastian run. We met this nice lady, and we hung out with her the entire time joking around.

Kids need routine, and I think adults do as well. I am glad that I am finally in a routine that I can live with. This weekend is going to be exciting because Cebastian has his first meet, and Isabelle is getting her soccer pictures taken. I plan on going to yoga and body pump in the morning, and then heading to watch her at her game. I will be going incognito because she doesn’t play because she is attached to my hip. I plan to watch Cebastian on Sunday, and I think I might do the 5K charity race for the FPYC. I need the exercise, and I am always up for helping with a good cause.

When this routine is going for a few weeks, I’m going to add a dog to our small family.

Routines are the best, and everyone should have one.