Breaking the Mental Block to Continue Running

Posted by dcfemella | Posted in emotion, health | Posted on 08-03-2010

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Running

If you asked me last year if you thought I was going to be a pretty good runner, I would have laughed at you, and told you that I didn’t have time for jokes.  Now, it’s a different story. I love running.  Yes, at times, it can be a little daunting.  However, after awhile, you can run and run without even thinking twice about it.

Last year, when I went to Panama, I couldn’t even run for a mile.  Kristine was my motivation and moral support.  This is a girl who did marathons all the time, and was always one of the fastest girls in her squandron.  I remember that I allowed my friends to convince me to sign up for the Army Ten Miler.  I would chat with my sister and tell her that I couldn’t do something like that. She told me not to give up, and that before she joined the Air Force, she was a terrible runner.  Like me, she said that she would constantly get cramps because she didn’t know how to breathe properly.  Also, she would get tired after she took two steps.  She said that it took her a couple of months to finally build up her stamina, and not think that running was half bad.

I remember being in Panama and running with her.  She would be running without even heaving, and I couldn’t even speak.  I would tell her to keep running cause I felt bad that I was preventing her from running the way she was accustomed to.  She would stop and smile at me.

“That’s ok Shevonne.  I want to walk with you.”

It was due to her support that I was eventually able to run the Army Ten Miler without stopping.  The first time I ran one mile without stopping, I sent her an email, so excited that I was able to do even that.  She was so ecstatic.  She responded, “I am so happy for you! I knew you could do it.”

When she passed away, I stopped exercising for awhile because it was hard for me to even get out of bed.  Eventually I had to because I had two children to take care of.  I didn’t even want to do the Cherry Blossom Ten Miler that I was doing in April.  However, I knew that Kristine loved that I was running, so I decided to start training.  The first two times I tried running, I could only do a mile.  I finally said to myself, “STOP THIS! If you can’t do it for yourself, do it for your sister, who was so proud of you.”

I started running two, three, and now five miles without thinking twice.  Yesterday when I ran five miles, I kept thinking that she was running right next to me, and encouraging me to keep going.  It was the only way that I kept running until I reached my goal.  I felt great afterwards, and I was able to smile, without having to force it, for the first time in over a month. 

I want her to be proud of me in anything that I do.  I hope that she is.


My Health Goals for 2010

Posted by dcfemella | Posted in health | Posted on 04-01-2010

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Army Ten-Miler 09

Exercising is one of my greatest passions. Without the endorphins that I receive from it not pumping through my body, I usually become irritable, “mad at the world,” and overanalyze to a fault. It’s one of the only reasons that I am glad that the holiday season is over, so I can get back to basics.

My 2010 short-term health goals are:

  1. Run three marathons
  2. Do a century ride
  3. Participate in the Air Force Cycling Challenge
  4. Drink more water
  5. Meditate

I already signed up for the Cherry Blossom Ten Miler coming up in March, and I am ready to start training again.

The best way to get motivated is to do it with a bunch of friends. Luckily, I have found a great group of friends who are all about running, biking, outdoor activities, etc., so I can always find some healthy-type of activity to do. Even when I don’t want to run anymore, I have someone pushing me to keep going. It’s one of the reasons that I can now run for miles on end without stopping. Great motivation.

My long-term goal is to lose 15 pounds. Before Christmas, I went to buy some new jeans, and was disappointed when I couldn’t fit into my size. It made me determined than ever to get some willpower to stop eating so much. Food is my other passion. Luckily, I have always been a lover of healthy foods, but it still doesn’t mean that I can eat all the time. Due to work, illness, and having the tendency to not eat when I’m at home, I dropped some weight, but it’s due to muscle loss, so I am kind of upset about that. However, I have a muscular body, so I know that I will get it back in no time.

What are some of your health goals for 2010?