Can a broken heart be mended?  Is love never having to say you’re sorry?  Do you forgive those you truly love?  Can anything separate two lovers?

You once said I was too idealistic and that this would be my downfall if I don’t start accepting reality.  It’s sad that you are the reason I no longer have this innocent idealistic point of view.  I know that you read my blog.  This is for you:

Let me not to the marriage of true minds

Admit impediments; love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O, no, it is an ever-fixèd mark,
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand’ring bark,
Whose worth’s unknown, although his heighth be taken.
Love’s not Time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle’s compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Sonnet 116
William Shakespeare

The last lists that I am going to post.  Sorry for being so solemn, but that is my current mood.  These are the movies, songs, and poems that I constantly read to try and find the answers to all of my questions of love and heartache.

Top Ten Movies for the BrokenHearted

Top Ten Songs:

1. Brandy and Boys II Men – BrokenHearted

2. Lasgo – Something

3. Hyde – Season’s Call

4. Dido – White Flag

5. Abba – The Winner Takes It All

6. Natalie Imbruglia

7. Chaka Khan – Through the Fire

8. Alex Ubago – Sin Miedo a Nada

9. Tiziano Ferrero – Tardes Negras

10. Brandi Carlisle – The Story

Top Ten Poems:

1. Shakespeare Sonnet 116

2. William Wordsworth – Splendor in the Grass

3. Emily Dickinson – After Great Pain

4.  Edgar Allen Poe – Annabel Lee

5. Lord Alfred Tennyson – Tear, Idle Tears

6. Sir Walter Raleigh – A Farewell to False Love

7. Emily Dickinson – Heart, We Will Forget HIm

8. Emily Bronte – Remembrance

9. Lord Byron – She Walks in Beauty Like the Night

10. Shakespeare Sonnet 147

Today is my nephew’s 16th birthday. I can’t believe that he is already a teenager.

Karmyn,

I love you so much. I remember when you came into my life when I was 14. Kristine and I would always take care of you with no questions asked. It’s daunting that an 11-year old and 14-year old practically raised you. But, I think that is one of the reasons you are so cool is because we were good influences on you. You listen to all types of music, are open-minded, sweet, and loving.  It’s definitely something that Kristine and I are both proud of.

You were the most well-behaved baby. I remember that one time I was taking care of you one Friday night. We both fell asleep, but you got up. When everyone came home, while you were quietly playing, I was passed out. If it were another toddler, the house would have been destroyed!  Even til this day, you are a person who i don’t have to worry about. I love your innocence. It’s something that many 16-year old boys don’t have, but you have in abundance.

I was tearing up at your recital. I am glad that you are finally doing what you are passionate about. It irked me that your mother never put you in dance and music classes when you were younger. It’s something that I always told her you were amazing at, and you proved me right.

I love you, Kam Kam. Your aunt will always be there for you. Don’t ever hesitate to pick up the phone and call me. You were practically my first born, and so I love you just as much as I love Cebastian and Isabelle.  

Here is you are playing “Nocturne:”

The pictures that accompanied that amazing show:

Kamryn’s Recital

Love,

Your aunt

I feel guilt, sad, and loss.  This person was a major part of my life for so long.  However, a tumultuous relationship where there was a lack of respect and cheating was an every day occurrence with this person, I don’t know if those feelings are justified.   I love L. as a person, but people are right.  If I want to get married and have more children one day, I have to let her move on.

L., I am truly sorry.  I know you hate me, but I hope that one day you can forgive me.  I did love you.  I’m sorry that I have to follow my heart and be with him.  He is my true love and always has been.  I hope you understand that one day and find someone who truly loves you.  I do wish you the best.