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How do you tell someone you miss him/her? Do you write that someone a letter? Email? Or do you call that person on the phone and profess how much you miss him/her? Do you lavish that person with gifts? Or do you prefer to send that person a homemade gift that is straight from the heart?

Missing a person is one of the hardest things that people can do. They always think about how that person is doing, how the person is, and always have that glimmer of hope that person will contact them. Whenever there is a chance that they are able to find out about that person, they will do anything possible to.

Usually though, all they have left are the memories that person has left behind. Maybe it’s their pride, that person’s pride, or fear of rejection that keep them from making any attempts to contact one another.

If I could contact the people I miss, I would say to them these simple words:

Let’s forget the past; forget the future; and let’s just make the present work.

Awhile ago, I posted the top ten songs, poems, and movies to hear and see when you are suffering from a broken heart.  I’m starting to feel better about a lot of things.  Accept everything that happened and realize that there are things that I am unable to control.  All I can do is be strong, and continue trekking on.  Life is too short to be so miserable.  If I died tomorrow, would I really want my last days on Earth to be moping around aching for someone who never really cared much about me to begin with?  No.

I created this Rhapsody playlist when I was enduring all that pain. Art in all forms can help you get through many hard parts in your life. They make you realize that there is someone out there who has gone through what you are going through, so you are not alone.  Also, that you will be alright.

Here is the playlist that I created, which you are able to listen to by pressing the Play icon. I hope that it can probably help someone out there.

Only for the Brokenhearted

Never Too Late by Three Days Grace

Better In Time by Leona Lewis

Aunque no te pueda ver by Alex Ubago

The Winner Takes It All by ABBA

Sin Miedo A Nada by Alex Ubago

The Story by Brandi Carlile

Through The Fire by Chaka Khan

Behind (Callea Club Mix) by Flanders

Hurt by Christina Aguilera

Prayer by Disturbed

Remember by Disturbed

I Guess That’s Why They Call It The Blues by Elton John

Tu Vacio by Enrique Iglesias

Solo En Ti by Enrique Iglesias

I Could Fall In Love With You by Erasure

Crazy On You by Heart

Heartless by Kanye West

Deseos De Cosas Imposibles by La Oreja De Van Gogh

West End Girls by Pet Shop Boys

Love Song by 311

Adia by Sarah McLachlan

Do What You Have To Do by Sarah McLachlan

I Love You by Sarah McLachlan

Someday by Soda Club

So Far Away by Staind

Get By by Talib Kweli

For All We Know by The Carpenters

Linger by The Cranberries

You Keep Me Hangin’ On by The Supremes

You Got Me by The Roots

Tardes Negras by Tiziano Ferro

Overload by Voodoo & Serano

White Flag by Dido

Saving All My Love For You by Whitney Houston

Last Night (Featuring Keyshia Cole) by Diddy

Torn by Natalie Imbruglia

Gotta Tell You  by Samantha Mumba

Crazy by Gnarls Barkley

SMART Goal Setting Motivational Mind Map Poster

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Goal setting is something that I think that every person should do in order to achieve their dreams. When I had my children, I really started to focus on ensuring that I reached my full potential. Why? I knew that anything that I did affected their future. Therefore, I created a five-year plan. My goal setting is a little extreme, but this is the only way I make sure I complete everything that I want to do:  

1. I create a five-year plan that is broken down by six life categories: Emotional/Mental Health, Self Development, Family, Health, Money, and Career
2. I break this down further into yearly goals
3. I further break this down into monthly goals, which are my short-term goals 

The best way for me to track the progress is by using 43Things, which I have been using for years. It is great because you are able to read other people’s progress, which really encourages to keep going. Additionally, you are able to write entries, so that you are able to share your story with others. One great feature is that it can integrate with your blog, so that you can share it with your blog readers as well. Below are my top-ten goals for May:

Do you have long-term and short-term goals? Do you have a way to track them?  

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.

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Will a machine ever be invented that will erase memories that people want to get rid of? Or is it something that will stay in the minds of the creators of “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind?” I remember watching this movie and thinking that one should never want to erase any part of his/her life. Now I want someone to build that machine, so I can use it on myself.

I’m a person who usually will get back up in an hour and be able to go. I can’t with this. Hope is something that one should never lose, and I have lost it, utterly and completely. It doesn’t matter now. Life goes on, and I just have to accept the way things are. My head hurts, and I feel like I can barely walk without wincing in pain. I can’t eat, smile, or laugh. I don’t think I ever will.

I know that I am getting punished for something. Maybe something I have done in this life or a past life, but I am. I wish I knew what so I could bear this better. All I want is to erase all my memories since 2006. Anything that reminds me: songs, photos, movies, etc. All I know is that all I have left to live for are my children. Nothing more.

If anyone ever builds that machine, I will pay whatever amount to use it.  For now,  I want to disappear.

Things are definitely starting to look up.  I am meeting wonderful people left and right.   

1. Co-Worker – My coworker is cool as hell.  We are slowly becoming friends, and she is totally awesome. 
2. Co-Moderator of Woman Social Group – Such a sweet girl.  I’m glad that we went Christmas shopping together.
3. Fellow FriendFeeder – I’m glad that I hung out with him tonight.  He has the same humor as me, and now we can be Wii friends.

The old friends that I have that helped me through these trying times:

1. Bridget – I love you girl!  I can’t wait to see you!
2. Dawne – You are always there for me, and I love you!
3. Tanya – She gave me great advice and would check up on me to make sure I was fine.

My spontaneity has returned.  I’m no longer having to tiptoe around anyone to be around my old friends and the new ones that I making.  I can’t wait til January when I roll out for almost two weeks.  I really, REALLY need it. 

This will be sweet and short because I am heading to bed.

Now that I am going to write my short-term goals for next year to reach the long-term ones, I have decided to add to not be afraid of meeting people.  It’s great to always smile and say hi to someone.  If someone asks you to do something, do it.  You usually won’t regret it.

Not going to lie.  I miss G. a lot, but I know right now it’s not a good time. 

Tomorrow I vow to write my goals.  I have been procrastinating on them due to being sad, but now I have no more excuses.