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What I Am Thankful For in 2009

25 November, 2009 | dcfemella | Comments

Family Saying Goodbye

Thanksgiving is upon us, and it’s the time that you are reminded about what you are thankful for. This year has been marvelous for me. For the past three years (2006-2009), I dealt with the worst things ever: depression, drama, losing love…twice, and family issues. I thought that I would never be happy again, and I’m glad that I was wrong. I am so thankful that I am finally happy and having a wonderful year.

Cebastian's Birthday

This year I am thankful for having a wonderful family and friends who are always there for me when I’m in need. My children are getting bigger, cuter, and better companions each day that passes. I still watch them when they are sleeping in amazement that I had them. Having children is definitely one of my greatest achievements, and the one I am most proud of. I’m not going to lie that there are times that they drive me insane. However, when they cuddle next to me, and look up at me, I melt and forget about the rest.

Kristine, Welcome Back!

My sister finally returned from Afghanistan, and I am so happy that I got to spend a few hours with her before she headed back to Okinawa. I also met Jeff, her boyfriend, who is a wonderful guy, and I know that he will make my sister happy, now and forever. This is the last year that my parents are here before they head back to Panama. We have definitely become closer, and I am glad that we have.

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My older sister, niece, and nephews are near me. I am so happy that I did the Maryland Breast Cancer Race with my sister this year. I know that her weight was something that she was struggling with, so I am glad to have been with her while she achieved a great feat, and I saw how proud she was that she was finally got rid of the excess weight.

Panama Trip 2009Mariah, Isabelle, and Me

The rest of my family who I don’t see as much, but I still love like crazy. You are all amazing, especially my cousin Ana Cristina. I love you all.

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I am glad for my wonderful friend. Bridget, ,who heard me cry every day in LA, and she didn’t mind. I am so glad that she is back in DC cause now I can see her more often. Ruma is great. I met wonderful people through her, and she has made me do things that I never thought I would ever do before: a ten-miler race, century ride, camping, hiking, rock climbing, etc. Shauna and Tish, who have been with me since I was in high school. We definitely have changed. My friends Amani, Pea, Derrick, and many others who I met on FriendFeed, met in real life, and now I consider them true friends. I hope my friends know how much I adore them.

Air Force Cycling Classic Race 2009

I am thankful for me. I overcame losing people I loved more than anything. It’s something that I never though I would ever get over. I also overcame depression, which is the worst feeling in the world. You feel like you are in a cage, and unable to get out. But I did it.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving, and has some thing to be thankful for.

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Running First Race Made Me Realize That I Can Do Anything

5 October, 2009 | dcfemella | Comments

Yesterday, I ran the Army Ten-Miler, and I am so proud of myself. It was my first race, and I rant the entire ten miles. I didn’t run at the pace that I wanted, and I beat myself up for it. However, I woke up realizing that I am being silly. It’s not how fast or how slow I was going, but that I finished. It’s my competitive spirit that does this, and I sometimes wish that it would quiet down and let me enjoy the moment. Now that I completed the run, I feel that I can do anything.

There are some parts of my life that I am not 100% happy, and I have been putting off thinking about it because I have been so busy with work and the kids. However, I am going to start working on them. I don’t want to wake up at 50 and feeling that I have let life pass me by.

This weekend I am glad that I kept it low key. I thought a lot about my life and the direction that it’s going, and the direction that I want it to go. My dreams are being put on hold for materialistic reasons, and that is something that needs to change. Even if I am wearing a potato sack and eating macaroni-n-cheese every day, I will be happier following the things that I want.

I now know what I need to do, and I am going to do it.

Here are some pics of me running the Army Ten-Miler: http://vida.posterous.com/this-is-how-you-look-after-running-ten-miles


Photo Detail: your mind’s sick again, originally uploaded by megan alice..

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Healing My Broken Heart Through Music, Poetry, and Movies

7 May, 2009 | dcfemella | Comments
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Cry* Me* A* River*, originally uploaded by ZpanishZcorpio.

Awhile ago, I posted the top ten songs, poems, and movies to hear and see when you are suffering from a broken heart.  I’m starting to feel better about a lot of things.  Accept everything that happened and realize that there are things that I am unable to control.  All I can do is be strong, and continue trekking on.  Life is too short to be so miserable.  If I died tomorrow, would I really want my last days on Earth to be moping around aching for someone who never really cared much about me to begin with?  No.

I created this Rhapsody playlist when I was enduring all that pain. Art in all forms can help you get through many hard parts in your life. They make you realize that there is someone out there who has gone through what you are going through, so you are not alone.  Also, that you will be alright.

Here is the playlist that I created, which you are able to listen to by pressing the Play icon. I hope that it can probably help someone out there.

Only for the Brokenhearted

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Finding a Summer Camp for Kids is a Big Deal

25 March, 2009 | dcfemella | Comments

Before the sunset, the kids play in the sand

Originally uploaded by joaobambu

I am currently trying to figure out what I’m going to do with the kids in the summer. It’s strange to me now that I am in the school-aged phase that it’s a huge deal what summer camps you choose for you kids. Every mother I speak to always adds “And what summer camps are you putting your children in?”

I know that Cebastian is going to an overnight camp for a week, and Isabelle might go to the one at her school. We might go to Italy (or definitely, a public beach). However, after that, i am pretty much clueless. The problem lies on how much these camps want. The cheapest camp is $340 a week. Let’s do the math:

$340 * 2 (kids) * 4 (weeks) = $2,720 a month

This is close to $3000 because this doesn’t include supplies and activity fees they love to add to this number. Also, my ex isn’t the type to really help. I can just see that conversation:

“Eric, I probably need a little extra for the kids’ summer camps.”

“Ummm…I give you child support, so sorry, take it from there.”

My coworker says that our neighborhood has a half-day summer camp that has tennis, pool, and walking on nature trails. However, I am pretty uncomfortable paying lifeguards to watch my kids until I get home. They are watching everyone else, so what happens if they miss my kid? I don’t know…maybe I am paranoid. I think if all else fails, the kids will go to Isabelle’s school, which is Cebstian’s old school.

I want my children to have a fun summer, but do I really have to pay this money for them to have fun? These summer camps know that working parents need to place their kids in something, so they are upping that price like crazy to kind of screw us. I really don’t know what people are living paycheck-to-paycheck do.

For school-aged parents out there, what are you doing with the kids this summer?

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Christmas Brings Peace and Happiness at Last

23 December, 2008 | dcfemella | Comments

I woke up on Monday, and I was extremeley happy.  Life seems way too perfect for words.  All the pieces are starting to fall into place, and I have no more drama.  I think that out of all the things that I am getting for Christmas, peace and happiness are the best gifts that I could have received.  

  1. Family - I am finally getting along with all of my family members.  It also helps that I have two of the cutest, greatest kids who I could have ever asked for.  My mom irritated me with her “I’m not watching the kids,” but then I found out her reasoning, and I understood.  My little sis is coming in January or February for a month, so I get to have one of my favorite people ever around during the cold, dreary days.
  2. Friends – My friends are the best.  After spending the night at Dawne’s house that one night, I feel totally inspired.  She really opened up my eyes about a lot of things, and I can’t thank her enough.  Another thing I realized is that we are way too alike.  What’s up with that?  I also have my friends Bridget and Tanya who gave me great advice when all the Laura drama was going on.  This weekend I am suppose to hang out with Dawne and Shauna, and I can’t wait.  I am going to take tons of pictures with my new camera.  
  3. New Friends – I have met some great people this year who I hope I can get to know more.  Bernadette and Heather are so sweet, and I hope that I can become closer to them.  Heather and I are suppose to head to the movies this weekend.  I hope she doesn’t think I am such a movie snob.  
  4. Love Life – TBD
  5. Trips – LA, Italy, and Panama are all coming up, and I am more than ready to venture out.  I might have to go to LA twice next year, so I can go when Tanya can.  Bridget, her, and I are going to drive to Las Vegas.  I love traveling, especially with people who know how to have a good time.  
  6. Career - My career is going great, and my freelance writing is picking up.  I hope that in the next two years to turn that into a full-time gig.
  7. Health – I love my body now.  It’s so strong and muscular.  I wish my stomach was a little tighter, but oh well, I can deal.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful holidays and that you think about the great things in your life, and the not the bad.

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