DCFemella

Betrayal is one of the worst feelings to feel. It is right up there with grief, pain, and loss. I honestly feel like my heart has been ripped open. The sad thing is that I allow this person to continuously do this to me over and over again. It feels like I have been crying since I met that person. Here are some of my favorite quotes dealing with betrayal:

One should rather die than be betrayed. There is no deceit in death. It delivers precisely what it has promised. Betrayal, though … betrayal is the willful slaughter of hope. – Steven Deitz

Betrayal is the only truth that sticks. – Arthur Miller

Betrayal is about learning not to idealize external sources. – Linda Talley

We have to distrust each other. It is our only defense against betrayal – Tennessee Williams

Trust can take years to build, but only a second to break. - Unknown

And I believe love should be like this Shakespeare’s Sonnet 116:

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth’s unknown, although his height be taken.
Love’s not Time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle’s compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

I’m a lot like Marianne from “Sense and Sensbility.” Maybe that is my problem.  I need to get over this.  I need to continue to focus on my children and myself.  I was glad I could speak to my sister today.  She is right.  I am strong, and I will get through this.