Pay it Forward: Helping People During Hard Times

10 February, 2010 | dcfemella | Comments

Just hold my hand ...

My sister’s death was unexpected and shocking.  It devastated our family, and we weren’t sure how we would go on (still don’t).  However, I learned something with her passing.  The love and support that our friends, family, and peers showed us during this trying time is something I will never forget. 

During this time, you don’t want to move out of your bed.  You don’t think about doing everyday tasks (e.g. cooking, cleaning, walking, etc.).  In Panama, the practice is very different. People come to your house where you have to cater to them. It’s something that drove me insane when my grandfather and aunt passed away. Here in the U.S. it was the opposite. I was amazed how loved ones came from far and beyond to help bring us food, help us clean, keep us company, and take care of the kids.  These are just a few things. It was comforting to see so many people come to show their support by helping us do things that we had seemed to forget overnight.

Even online, people I interact with every day, showed their support by giving me their sympathy. They might not know it, but that was a huge comfort for me, and I want to thank you for that, especially my fellow FFers.

My wonderful friends came by and brought us dinner, took Cebastian and Isabelle to the movies, and sent my sister lovely flowers. You are all wonderful, and I am glad to have met all of you. Thanks again.

If someone I know, even if that person is not a close friend, has something devastating happen in his/her family, then I definitely plan on being there in any way I can. Even if the person doesn’t pay it forward, it really doesn’t matter. I will know that I have helped someone in even a small way during a trying time.

Goodbye Kristine, We’ll Miss You Always

27 January, 2010 | dcfemella | Comments

On 26 January, my little sister Kristine Polastre passed away. I’m devastated and feel like every moment that passes is harder and harder. I will be practically MIA for awhile until I am able to breathe without feeling any pain. I love you so much Kristine, and I hope to see you when I one day am gone.  Anie and I will always feel a void because without you, nothing feels right.

Here is something I wrote October that describes exactly the way I feel about her: My Sister, My Soulmate

After great pain a formal feeling comes–

The nerves sit ceremonious like tombs;
The stiff Heart questions–was it He that bore?
And yesterday–or centuries before?

The feet, mechanical, go round
A wooden way
Of ground, or air, or ought,
Regardless grown,
A quartz contentment, like a stone.

This is the hour of lead
Remembered if outlived,
As freezing persons recollect the snow–
First chill, then stupor, then the letting go.

- Emily Dickinson

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The Day from HELL

25 January, 2010 | dcfemella | Comments

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I had the worst day that I’ve had in a super long time.  Even before I got into work, I already had a feeling that today was not going to be a good day.  It wasn’t.  Anything that could go wrong, did.  I thought that I would have time to head to the gym, so I could de-stress before picking up the kids.  No such luck.  The craziness at work took longer than I wanted, so I had no time to go to the gym.  The only saving grace was that I was going to see the kids.

I knew that when I saw them and was able to kiss their cheeks, I would feel a whole lot better.  We ran some errands before heading home.  I’m so exhausted that I knew that if I went home, I wouldn’t go anywhere.  Therefore, the kids and I ventured out.  We had a great time doing everyday things.  For a second, I forgot that stress existed.  Even now, I am tired, but I don’t feel like I’m going to burst into tears at any moment.  Luckily I have a wonderful coworker who I can vent to, and she doesn’t get upset or judge me.  If she wasn’t there, I don’t know what I would do.

Even though I’m still stressed, I feel better knowing that like Scarlett O’Hara said, “Tomorrow is another day.”  It will be Tuesday and a day closer to Friday.  I keep telling myself that this is temporary so I can deal.  All I know is that I can’t endure this craziness much longer.  I’ve already gotten sick three times, had H. Pylori, and feel crappy. This is all due to stress related to work.  Something’s gotta give.

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A Quick Note on My Love for Blogging

24 January, 2010 | dcfemella | Comments

I love you blogs and coffee.

One of my passions is blogging. I’ve been doing it since I discovered it back in 1999 after taking a grad course on “Writing in the Digital Age.” Since then, I have been obsessed with it. I’ve had so many blogs throughout the years. After I get bored of it, I usually deleted them. I now wish that I hadn’t. However, I have taken it as a lesson learned, and I will not delete any again.

Last year, I began guest blogging and actually getting paid to write for other blogs. I couldn’t believe it, and I was excited to continue to do it. It’s something that I always dreamed of doing, but never thought would happen. Now it had. Even when no one is reading what I write, I still love blogging. It feels good to express myself.

I’ve made some wonderful friends through blogging that I never would have met in any other way. I still keep in touch with them after many years, and I hope that I continue to do so til the end. Then you add social networking sites, like FriendFeed, and you have a wonderful group of people who have touched you in some way.

Do I see blogging in my future? Yes, I know that I will do it until I can no longer type.


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Saving Money is My Main Money Focus in 2010

21 January, 2010 | dcfemella | Comments

The Piggy Bank

When I was in my twenties, I had the worst credit, and I didn’t know how to save money. I would spend and spend on anything that I wanted, and live paycheck-to-paycheck. It wasn’t until 2007 when I started getting serious about getting rid of my debt and start saving for short-term and long-term goals. I picked up a bunch of personal finance books and started reading away.

By 2008, I had paid of all of my debt, minus my student loan, and saved money to buy a place of my own. I did. I felt empowered and free. Living paycheck-to-paycheck, having tons of credit-card debt, and not having anything in savings is huge stress. Therefore, I was glad to have eliminated it.

I started following Dave Ramsey’s plan to financial freedom and it helped. Now I plan on following it again because I have some new short-term and long-term goals that I want to become a reality:

Short-Term Goals

  • Go on three international trips
  • Save $1,000 a month
  • Increase my retirement contribution
  • Make more money

Long-Term Goals

  • Buy a bigger place in 2011
  • Pay off student loan
  • Have 3-6 months in emergency funds

Goals are the best way to ensure that you maintain on track. I love eating out, so I know that is something that I need to keep in check if I want to be able to succeed in making these goals a reality. Here is a great video from Dave Ramsey on how to set goals, especially when it comes to finances:


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