Dear Diary, You Have Saved My Life

BookMooch Journal: Dear Diary, originally uploaded by aliciaed.

Since I was around nine, I have kept some type of diary. I got the idea after reading “Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret.” Even though there wasn’t a diary in the story, I felt that it could be my own way to write my inner feelings down.  In all the diaries I have kept, I have written all the wonderful and painful experiences in my life. In 2001, I discovered blogging. Since then, I have always had a blog. People sometimes ask me how I can write such private thoughts where everyone can see. I respond that these are not my most private, deepest thoughts because those I reserve for my own personal diary.  However, it is sometimes wonderful to talk to people who are not part of you life, who have been where you are. I still have my most recent Blogger blog, and I skimmed through it just now. Wow, I have grown so much, both as a person and Writer.

My old blog posts were short, but you could sense the pain that I was feeling during this time. Usually you want to remember the good times with someone and tend to mask the bad parts. Reading my old blog, I now know that the reality is that there were far more bad times than good ones. I am better off single and happy, like I am now. Since January, I have felt pretty much complete. Like many people, you sometimes fall back to that depressive state. However, I am now able to pick myself up and realize that I have a pretty great life.

I feel that if I didn’t keep a blog or diary, I would not be here today.  They saved my life, especially when I felt like the only way to stop the pain was to end my life.  I really don’t know what I would do without my blog and diary. They are my best friends through my life. When I fill up a diary, I am able to save and read it at a later time. It’s good to do that after some time has passed, so you can A. get some perspective about your current state and B. ensure that you don’t let history repeat itself.

I am teaching my children to do the same because I want them to have the same fulfillment that I feel when I write in my blog/diary.  I want them to know that it doesn’t have to be words written in it, it can be pictures, videos, or doodles.  Just anything that will help you get through life.

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