The wind keeps howling outside, and I’m about to turn the light off.  This is one of the only times that I wish that the kids or Haji were in here with me.  It sucks that I am afraid of the dark.  It’s such a debilitating   phobia.  I think it might be due to my active imagination, watching too many horror films as a child, and/or that once my parents forgot me in the dark apartment when there was a fire next door.  Whatever it is, I hate it.  

Now that I think about it, I am way too afraid about too many things: the dark, heights, bugs, and planes.  

I hate heights as well.  If I am driving over a bridge, I have to grasp the wheel with both hands while clutching my teeth until I am safely on the other side.  Even when I am at sporting events, I have to hold my breath if I am in the nosebleed seats, when I stand up.  

Bugs have never been my repertoire.  I am so glad that I have a son who protects me.  He will kill any bug that comes near me.  Isabelle also has this crazy fear of insects, so is it hereditary?  I think it was one time when my younger sis was watching them.  She is afraid of spiders.  She freaked out so bad when she found out there was a spider on her seat that she almost crashed me car and scared my daughter to a phobia.  

I’m excited to be going to LA for a week and a half in January, but I am also afraid to get on the planes.  Planes never scared me until 9/11.  I know it sounds silly, but now I am super afraid to get on a plane.   It also could be that is when I first saw “Final Destination.”  Hmmmm…

How do I get rid of these fears?  I don’t know.  I sometimes think that I should find a Hypnotist to see if he/she can hypnotize me to not fear these things.  The only thing to fear is fear itself, and I need to find a way to deal with these fears.